Joy and fear about Ewa and Karol arriving. The Team is now complete and the sense is very tangible in the space. My body relaxes, I feel that I was holding some tension and fear in the last days.
Ravi asks us to write all our names on the drawing he made. We embody the team in paper and ink. I hang it on the wall. Magic ritual of materialisation. 6 humans, 2 animals and the Land. Four names have only three letters.
Visit to an ancient megalithic site. Feeling the energy. Bringing this energy back to the system.
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I notice fear about writing about what is happening in space at a story level. I have anger about stories being limitations and self-fulfilling prophecies. I could write “I sense the Gremlins are highly activated by the transformative purpose of the space”. I could write "There is resistance coming up in all of us on some level to the project we came here to do". Instead I am taking Ana’s suggestion to write questions, to open up the space and bring proposals.
Yet I want to in the future have time, a container and a space to grasps the important learnings that appear when we get hooked, as I truly feel learnings and legends are there. I want to share those legends with the world. I want us to be vulnerable and visible. And I want to take time and establish processes so that everybody feels safe FIRST.
Stories Sniffer. I notice myself being more and more careful with telling stories. I cannot fully aviod stories as my intellectual body feeds on stories. And if I tell a story I want to underline - "please remember - it's My story". I want to practise all over again, distance myself from the stories, and not take in the stories of others as my own.
